Tuesday, 29 November 2016

30 questions I asked myself (2016)

I was inspired to do this questionnaire after reading Abby Norman's one here.

I think it's a good self-awareness questionnaire and great for year-end reflections. It's called the Proust Questionnaire and you can find the questions here on Vanity Fair.
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1. What is your idea of perfect happiness?
It's cold outside but warm inside. My pets are cuddling with me. I'm having the best conversation with (someone who gets me) and we talk for hours.

2. What is your current state of mind?
Flustered by my to-do-list hence procrastinating by doing this questionnaire.

3. What is your greatest fear?
Failing people, failing myself, failing God.

4. What is the trait you most deplore about yourself?
Caring too much about things I should not be caring about, which sometimes leads to anger, which leads to saying things I regret.

5. What is the trait you most deplore in others?
Self-centredness. People who feel entitled to take things that are not theirs to take.

6. What is your greatest extravagance?
Art and craft supplies.

7. What do you consider the most overrated virtue?
I think it's great to be virtuous and the world needs more of it. If anything, virtues should be emphasized more.

Too underrated - kindness and gentleness.

8. What is it that you most dislike?
Going into a cold pool. Going/driving to new places alone. Calling a stranger. Finding that my pet is unwell. Receiving complaints from others (I do this too). Feeling afraid. Ghost stories.

9. On what occasion do you lie?
To avoid embarrassment/criticism/judgement.

10. What do you dislike most about your appearance?
I like my appearance. I just don't like how some people react to it.

11. What is the quality you most like in a man?
Kindness, being aware of self (strengths and weaknesses), and being aware of others.

12. What is the quality you most like in a woman?
Kindness, being aware of self (strengths and weaknesses), and being aware of others.

13. Which words or phrases do you most overuse?
"I dunno."

14. What or Who is the greatest love of your life?
My pets.

15. When and Where were you the happiest?
When I was in college/uni, here and in Aus. Also, the part where I get home and all my pets are wagging their tails/rubbing against my legs. Or the part where I find my cat snuggled up somewhere and looks super comfy and cute.

16. Which talent would you most like to have?
To be good with managing people and being with people.

17. What do you consider your greatest achievement?
Tutoring and helping my brother and cousin ace their Literature papers. I guess this is not really an achievement, more like a proud moment. They're smart, but I just like to give myself credit for helping them upgrade from Bs to A stars. Haha!

18. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
To care less about what others think (of me; and in general).

19. If you were to die and come back as a person or thing, what do you think it would be?
A bird.

20. What is your most treasured possession?
My pets.

21. What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?
Depression - feeling that there's not a single soul in this whole wide world who actually cares.

22. What is your most marked characteristic?
Overthinking things.

23. What do you most value in your friends?
A listening ear.

24. Who are your favourite writers?
Neil Gaiman, Roald Dahl, Charles Dickens, LM Montgomery, Rohinton Mistry, Louisa May Alcott, Hengtee Lim.

25. Who is your favourite hero of fiction?
Tristan Thorn.

26. Which historical figure do you most identify with?
Do people in the bible count?
The older brother from the story of the prodigal son. Martha (Mary's sister).

27. Who are your heroes in real life?
Kittenxlady, Dr. Chan from myanimalcare.org
Thank you for saving all those little lives and making it happen in a bigger-than-self scale.

28. What are your favourite names?
Tommy, Oreo, Georgy, Toby.

29. What is your greatest regret?
Not saying yes to a relationship I would have loved because I couldn't accept all of him.

And saying yes... to some stuff.
And not saying no. And not speaking up more.

Not saying hi to that person on the bus one day in college. I felt really compelled to go say hi and I had a pounding heart and sweaty hands. But I didn't. I told God, "I'm too scared..." I don't even remember what he looks like, and I don't even know who he is, and I don't know how his days are now.

Not speaking up more about God when my late ex-boss talked to me about his views of Christianity one early and quiet morning. He passed away unexpectedly a few months later (he was not even 60). I always felt that I should have said something more then. He had a Buddhist/Taoist funeral but I'm not sure what he really felt deep inside. He was very contemplative that morning and I just mostly listened to what he said about his doubts and his thoughts about Christianity and growing up in a Christian family.

30. How would you like to die?
Being taken up by God like Enoch but with no worried/sad family members left behind.

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